"Do you still need something?" Guild asked.
I shook my head and smiled at him, "No, This is enough. thankyou."
He nodded before he gestured me to leave, I bowed to him before I walked out of his office.
Weeks had passed since that incident, In that weeks I was haunted.
Haunted by memories of him, vlad.
I miss him. So much.
I miss how he held me, I miss how he loved me before.
I miss us, I miss what we have before.
I tried to distract myself by hanging out with elite team but, in the end of the day my mind will ended up thinking about him.
I hated it.
I hate how much I grew attached to him, now I'm carrying his child.
While he's unaware.
Every day I'm gonna deal with morning sickness with him by my side, the pain, the vomiting.
It's getting harder and harder to carry a child.
But I wonder, will it still be hard for me if he was here?
If he was the one who's taking care of me?
Every night I'm gonna deal with nightmares again, sleep paralysis.
But when I think about him until I fell asleep it would be peaceful, my nightmares won't haunt me.
Every night I'm crying because of how much I miss him, and how much it's hard for me.
Because I got used to him that he won't let me suffer, he hate to see me suffering.
But here I am right now, suffering without him.
I felt more miserable than before, knowing that I have to carry it all myself.
Knowing that he won't care anymore, I hated the fact that we ended up like this.
I never felt so hopeless, powerless in my life until I ended up in this situation.
I didn't expect to be this hard.
I hate to think that it's all over for us, there's no hope for us anymore.
The thought of it is too much that I can't even bear it.
I expected to be hurt but not painful, I thought the guilt of betraying him will the one that's gonna hurt me nut I'm wrong.
The guilt and my love for him is the ones that hurting me, and it's eating me alive that I felt so powerless.
Is this how you felt, mom?
I got betrayed by my own sister, the man I love is now treating me like im someone he never met.
Like my existence is making him sick.
"Are you okay?" I was snapped out of my thoughts when delta spoke beside me.
We're currently in alpha's private plane, today we're leaving Russia.
We're going to Paris, that's where I'm gonna live.
Where vlad and I dreamed to live someday, but here I am fulfilling our dreams... Alone.
"Yeah, I'm okay." I gave delta a small smile.
"I know it's hard but, you'll get over it." I nodded at her.
Delta is my comfort zone, since I joined the elite team she was the one who approached me first.
I know her sufferings too, her problems.
"How about you? Are you okay now?" I asked.
She gave me a small smile before she shrugged, "I don't know. You know, I'm still thinking about him."
"Alpha?" I silently said, she nodded.
"But we can't force things right?" I held her hands.
She and alpha had a previous relationship before, they know each other since they were trainees.
but guild found out about their relationship and made them choose if they will assigned both of them in different teams or they will stay in elite team but they have to end things with each other.
They chose to stay in the elite team and end things between them.
They managed to hide it for 3 years, it must be painful for delta.
Relationship in our organization is forbidden, that's why they've been ignoring each other. No talking unless necessary.
Ignoring each other is not required but I guess it's their way to forget about each other?
I don't know if alpha already had a girlfriend, kase naalala ko noong nagpasama sya na bumili ng napkin.
Hindi naman siguro sya ang gagamit non diba?
"We'll be okay," she rested her head on my shoulder.
I pat her head, "I hope too."
We're currently in our room, nasa kabilang room sila alpha.
Si lota ay tulog, palagi talagang tulog ang babaeng ito. But I know what's the reason behind it.
Lota loves to sleep because she said she's always dreaming about Levi in her sleep, she had a feelings for Levi.
Levi also had a feelings for her but Levi chose to rejected her, because as I said it's forbidden to have a relationship inside the organization.
Delta slept on my shoulder, I didn't move so i won't disturb her.
I stared at the sky through the window.
Maya maya pa ay dinalaw na ako ng antok at nakatulog na ako.
"Shh, I'm here. I won't leave."
What's that? Vlad? That's vlad voice.
An image of him flash in my mind.
"Where do you wanna live?" His voice.
"How about, we live in Paris?" That's my voice.
What? This moment happened before. Am I in the past? Am I dreaming?
"Do you want there?" I nodded as he asked.
"Then, Paris it is." He smiled.
Vlad, I miss you.
"Maeve," someone gently pats my cheek.
Slowly, I opened my eyes and saw delta.
"Huh?"
"We're here, you've been asleep throughout the flight." I sighed.
I nods at her and stood up from my seat.
I've been asleep for hours and keep dreaming about our memories?
Habang bumababa ako ng hagdan ay nakita ko na sila alpha, epsilon, lorde, lota sa baba. Nasa likod ko si delta.
They were wearing their shades and wearing a black formal attire, ganoon din ang suot namin ni delta.
Kinuha ko ang shade na nakalagay sa ulo ko at sinuot iyon.
As I stepped on the ground I untied my long white hair, letting it cascaded down my back.
We will separate ways here, may mga sports car na naka park din.
Alpha's black Chevrolet Corvette, Lorde's Grey McLaren 600LT, Epsilon's Black BMW i8, Lota's purple Ferrari F8, Delta's White Porsche 718 boxster and my black Lamborghini SVJ roadster.
I hopped in my car nakita ko narin na pumasok na sila sa kanya-kanyang kotse, wala na akong dalang gamit dahil ay ang mga associates na ang bahala mag ayos sa tutuluyan namin.
Sabay sabay ang pag tunog ng mga kotse namin, as we drove off the engine roaring echoed through the road.
Sometimes I realize it's okay to be broken when you have a lot of money.
But, what's not okay is if you're you're broke. You better get up. No one's gonna do something for you to be successful.
Be broken, but not broke.
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