"Vlad?" Mahinang Sabi ko at may luhang pumatak saakin.
Isa isang bumukas ang ilaw at nainis ako sa taong kaharap ko, putangina.
"Anong trip mo?" Bulyaw ko kay lorde.
Humagalpak ito ng tawa at bumukas ang pinto tsaka bumungad si alpha at silver.
I crossed my arms and glared at them.
"See? Silver, your mommy still loves your father." Natatawang Saad ni lorde kay silver.
Pinaningkitan ko sya ng mata at tinikom nya ang bibig nya. Binaba naman ni alpha si silver.
"What's this?" Taas kilay kong tanong.
"Si silver nag utos," sabay na turo nilang dalawa sa anak ko.
Binaba ko ang tingin ko kay silver, napanguso naman ito.
"Kaninong bahay to?" Tanong ko.
"It's mine," si alpha at sumandal sa doorframe.
"Bahay mo to? Ano ka? Mag a-anak ng isang dosena?" Kunot noo kong tanong sakanya. Napakamot ito sa batok nya.
"Nililibot kasi nila ni delta itong buong mansion nya pag gumagawa ng bata," agad na binatukan ni alpha si lorde.
"Bunganga mo," suway ni alpha kay lorde na nakanguso at hinihimas ang ulo na binatukan ni alpha.
"Ewan ko sainyo," buntong hininga ko at lumuhod Para pantayan si silver.
"Baby? What's wrong? Is it true you commanded it?" I asked gently to silver.
Marahan itong tumango at pinagsalikop ang mga kamay nya sa likod nya.
"Why would you?"
"Because Mamma, I think you don't love daddy anymore." Kita ko ang lungkot sa mga mata nito.
"What? Baby, why would you think like that?" Tanong ko at hinawakan ang magkabilang pisnge nito ng marahan.
"Mamma, I want Daddy." Those words from my son broke something in me.
I don't even know if vlad would still accept me, us.
I'm scared that he would take silver away from me knowing that he's mad, but after I found out that he'd been watching us for years made me think that maybe we're not important for him.
He saw me suffer in years for raising silver, yet he didn't take action. To take me back in his arms.
He saw how I cried, Begged to god to take him back, say his name like a damn prayer every night in order to not forget his name.
How I'll buy the perfume he was using in order not to forget his scent, how I Will look at his picture every night in order to remember his face everytime, how I will poked silver's forehead that he used to do with mine in order not to forget his gesture.
My hope is hanging on a loose thread. How could I take him back from us when that action of his slapping me with the truth that he doesn't care anymore?
I don't want to give silver false hope, I ruined everything.
I wish Silver wasn't born, not because I regretted it. But because I can't give the presence he needed, because I can't give him a life he desires, because he was born in this difficult situation.
"I-i'll do anything, okay?" Pinilit kong ngumiti dito.
He nodded and hugged me, I caressed his back.
I'm sorry, Silver.
Pinakain muna kami ni alpha bago kami umuwi, hindi ko na nahagip si epsilon dahil natutulog daw sa may guess room.
Pagkauwi ay inilapag ko na si silver sa kama at hinubad ang apatos nito. Nakatulog kasi ito sa byahe, hinalikan ko ang ulo nito at dumiretso sa walk in closet.
Nagbihis lamang ako ng hoodie at pants tsaka lumabas. Dumiretso ako ng convenience store ngunit nasa malayo pa lamang ako ay panay ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko.
Hindi pa man ako nakakalapit ay may nakita akong pamilyar na Tao, nakaupo sa bench at naninigarilyo.
Across from him was a woman. He couldn't see me because I'm a few meters away from them.
I can see the woman's face. She's smiling at him. The woman had chubby cheeks, pink lips and grey eyes, thick eye brows, and short blonde hair.
She looks beautiful.
While him? He looks more intimidating, side view nya lamang ang nakikita ko. Her sharp jaw, pointed nose, and his hair was messy. He's wearing his corporal attire while the woman is wearing a white dress.
They were talking, and the woman was smiling and laughing at him in every word he would say. Habang seryoso naman sya na nakikipag usap.
Is this the reason? Is she the reason why he didn't pull me back in his arms when he knows that I'm suffering and having a hard time raising our child?
Agad akong naglakad paalis nang lumingon iti sa gawi ko. I bit my lip to stop the tears from falling.
Weeks had passed, and I threw myself at work. Panay ako tanggap ng mission at Doon binubuhos ang galit at sakit na nararamdaman ko.
Sa Umaga ay aalagaan si silver at sa Gabi pag tulog na ito ay tsaka ako umaalis upang gawin ang mga mission ko.
Patay dito, patay Doon. Bugbugan dito, bugbugan Doon.
Kasalukuyan akong nasa organization at nasa office ni guild, may sasabihin Sana ako sakanya pero wala sya dito kaya hihintayin ko muna sya.
Sa ilang sandali na pag hihintay ko ay may napansin akong picture frame na nakataob sa isang maliit na lamesa, katabi nito ay ash tray.
Naglakad ako papunta Doon at kinuha ang picture frame. Hindi kasi si guild ang Tao na mahilig mag taob ng mga frames, unless ayaw nyang makita iyon.
Ngumit pag angat ko ng frame ay bumungad saakin ang picture frame ng isang babae at si guild.
Bata pa sila at nasa mga edad na 20s or 30s?
They were wearing an elite assasin uniform, same as our uniform.
Napakunot ang noo ko nang makilala ang babae sa frame, her long white hair cascaded down her back, the side bangs, the two katanas attached to her back, she was smiling.
Si guild ang lalakeng Basa picture, he was also wearing an elite assasin uniform like mine. Nakaakbay sya sa babae at nakangiti din.
Did they know each other? He knew my mother?
What's their connection? Are they team mates?
Why didn't Guild tell me?
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