"I lost everything since I lost your mother, I'm always being haunted of my own crime."
"Because of that, I deserve the same punishment. I was so blinded with anger. That's why i did that, but killing her wasn't my plan. I was forced."
"Forced to hurt her when I never wanted to hurt her. I abandoned you for your own safety. The organization doesn't approve that I have a daughter with the assasin who's our enemy. That's against our rules, I got punished when I said I don't want them to touch both you and Irene, and with that, I forced myself to abandon you."
"I'm sorry."
Tears streamed down my face, as well as him.
I never thought of his pain, not even once it crossed my mind.
I only think about my own pain and my own trauma. Not those around me who's in the same boat as me.
We both lost the one who's important to us, and I lost my mother. But he lost his wife, the love of his life. It became the loss of his life.
He abandoned us because he didn't want his organization to hurt us or kill us.
Not even once. His sacrifices crossed my mind. It never did.
I was blinded by my own pain, I forgot about people who feel the same as mine.
"I'm sorry," I sobbed.
"Dont, you dont have to." He wiped his own tears.
Now I understand. He really never wanted to hurt us. He hurt us in order to protect us.
Sometimes, you have to hurt the ones you need to protect.
And He protects us. From him.
He slowly reached my face, and he hesitated for a moment whether to touch my cheek or not, but I nodded at him. I leaned on his touch.
This is the touch I've been craving for, I can feel his love.
"You look like your mother," I closed my eyes.
"Do you ever love her?"
"She's the only one I love."
I don't know what to react after all of that. After I found out about that, I realized I've been selfish.
Selfish because of my own pain. I didn't bother to understand them.
I only understand my own pain.
Nagkaayos kami ng tatay ko, I forgive him.
He held me in his arms like I've been longing to.
"I'm sorry." He said those words that I've been aching to hear.
When vlad and I arrived at home, Silver was asleep. Katabi nito si lorde sa sahig.
Iniwan muna namin sya kay lorde dahil wala naman syang ginagawa.
Ngunit nadatnan namin na tulog ang dalawa, nagkalat ang mga sasakyang laruan ni silver sa lapag.
Nakayakap si silver kay lorde at nakayakap din si lorde kay silver.
Akala ko si epsilon ang pinaka close ni silver ay si lorde pala.
Lorde stirred up as vlad gently took silver away from him.
"Oh nandito na pala kayo," he sat up and leaned against the couch.
"Pagod?" I chuckled.
Vlad carried silver upstairs.
"Oo, tangina. Halos ayaw tumigil sa paglalaro ni silver." He brushed up his already messy hair.
"Ganon talaga, bata eh." I shrugged and sat on the couch.
"Ayoko muna pala magka-anak." Napahilot ito sa sentido nya.
"Nga pala, may hindi ka sinabi saamin ha. Saakin," pinaningkitan ko ito ng mata.
"Ano?"
"Bakit hindi namin alam na girlfriend mi si agafya?" Taas kilay kong tanong.
Napakamot ito sa batok nya, "Malamang. Mapahamak pako."
"Sus, tapos ikaw pala nagkabit ng mga hidden camera sa bahay ko sa France." Hinampas ko ito ng unan.
"Bakit? Parang di gusto ah. Namumula ka nga daw nung nalaman mo na kay vlad Yung camera eh." Natatawang Saad nito.
"Kapal ng mukha mo. bakit nung tinanong ko si agafya sayo ang lungkot mo?"
"Nag away kami noong time na yon," inirapan ako nito.
"Talaga lang ha." Hindi pa man natatapos ang bangayan namin ay may bumusina mula sa labas.
"Tangina, Sya na yan." Napakunot ako ng noo nang agad itong nagtungo palabas.
Sakto rin na nakababa na si vlad sa hagdan, "What's the matter?"
"May bumusina sa labas," Saad ko habang lumapit ito saakin.
"It must be her."
"Who?"
"Agafya." I nod at him.
Hindi ko pa man lubos na nakikilala si agafya ay alam kong mabait ito base sa aura nya at itsura nito.
Pumasok si lorde kasama si agafya, agafya was wearing a white off-shoulder dress that was above her knee. Matching her channel white bag and channel heels.
"Uncle," she smiled at vlad.
Lumaoit sya at bumeso kay vlad, agafya was tall. Sa tingin ko ay nasa 5'5 ang height nito dahil hanggang labi ko lang ito.
Bumaling ang tingin nya saakin at ngumiti.
"She's maeve, my wife." Saad ni vlad sakanya. I smiled at her.
"Wife? Where's the ring?" Mataray na tanong nito.
"Soon to be put in her finger," vlad flicked her forehead.
"Hi, Auntie maeve." Maligalig na bati nito saakin.
"No, just call me ate." Natatawang Saad ko at tumango lamang ito saakin. Naiilang kasi ako sa auntie.
Lumingkis agad ito sa braso ko, "I'll be borrowing her. Stay here, shoo!"
Dumiretso kami sa kusina at nagsimula sya magkalkal ng mga lulutuin nya siguro?
"So, ate. How are you here?" Tanong nito habang nag aasikaso ng lulutuin nya.
"I'm fine here, how about you? How are you with, lorde?" I asked.
"Hmm, he's okay. He's a green flag. well, we won't achieve the four years if he was a jerk." She chuckled.
Totoo nga naman, no woman would stay if a boy was a jerk.
"Where's Silver pala? Tama ba? Silver?" Humarap ito saakin.
"Yeah, Silver. Tulog na sya eh." Sagot ki at tumango lamang ito.
Nong' gabing yon ay masaya kami na nag kwentuhan ni agafya. Ilang oras ko palang sya nakakausap pero I feel like I have known her for a long time already. Magaan sya kausap. Kumain din kami ng binaked nyang cookies, katulad ni vlad ay magaling din itong magluto.
"Where are you bringing me?" Natatawa kong tanong kay vlad.
We're currently on the beach where he brought us. There's a blindfold on my eyes, and he's holding my hand, guiding my every step.
"Just a little more, baby." He gently said.
Si silver ay nakahawak sa kaliwang kamay ko, Vlad said he have a surprise that's why he brought me here.
"Okay, stop." He said gently. I felt the blindfold loosen until it fell.
I was greeted by a white table with three chairs. There's a red roses bouquet placed on the table, plate, and utensils with champagne and juice. a red carpet where I was standing. A white tent. With a view of sunset and the sea.
"What's this?" I asked.
"Surprise, Mamma!" I looked down at silver and chuckled.
"What's this for?" I asked vlad again.
"Well, this is an important day." He said as he reached for the large bouquet on the table.
He was wearing his corporate attire, and silver was matching his suit while I was wearing a white fitted long dress.
"Important day?" Kunot noo kong tanong nang iabit nya sakin ang bouquet.
"Vlad," my eyes slightly widened as he knelt down.
I bit my lip as I felt my eyes heated, fighting the urge not to cry.
"What are you doing?" Naluluha kong tanong.
He pulled out a small red ring with a diamond ring in it.
"Baby, my love, my solace, my infinite, my eternity, my universe, my everything. May I ask for your permission? Will you marry me?" Tears fell down my cheeks.
I chuckled, "Yes."
His eyes went teary, his hands trembling as he put the ring in my finger.
I hugged him as I laughed and cried on his shoulders.
"You happy?" Nanginginig ang boses nito.
"So happy, Thank you." I chuckled.
He carried silver, "Daddy and Mamma will get married now?"
"Yes, kiddo." Vlad kisses his temple.
We spend 5 months preparing our wedding, inviting the people who's important to us. But my father wasn't there. Only irene.
My father is in the hospital, but there's an empty seat for him and for my mother. A four empty seat. The other two were for vlad's parents.
The wedding will be at cologne cathedral here in Germany. I chose a red wedding gown. The theme was black and red.
The day came, and I was nervous. Not because I'm scared, but because I'm excited.
I never had the feeling of being scared to marriage, I never have to. Because the man I'm marrying was vlad. Marriage isn't scary when it's him.
As the door opened, I looked up straight at the aisle, iginala ko ang paningin ko at nakita si silver na malaki ang ngiti. Katabi nya si epsilon at delta. As I slowly walked down the aisle, holding a red roses bouquet on my hand, I met his gaze.
His eyes were teary, he looks at me like im the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. His eyes were admiring me. That's his look of love.
Guild was the one who's walking with me down the aisle.
As I held his hand, he couldn't take his eyes off of me.
"You're so exquisite." I smiled as he whispered that.
In that wedding, I never wanted ending vows. A look full of love. An applause of the people we know.
It was all unforgettable.
What's more unforgettable is I saw two butterflies landed on the empty seats. I smiled.
Mom, dad, I did it.
This is all I want; to be love and to be in love.
Who knows? That a ruthless assasin can still love like this?
Who knows? That an assasin like me can still shed tears?
But that tears weren't because of hatred, pain, and anger anymore.
It was all because of love.
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