Please come back to me. I miss everything about her. It's been a long time, but the feeling still hits me. She used to say that the moon is beautiful tonight. It is gorgeous, but she shines brighter than the moon in my eyes. What's next? What should I do? What will you do? How would you do it?
I wish to be better than myself yesterday since I know I can't be better than anyone else. Aiming to be better does not mean going towards perfection. To be better is the acceptance of failure, pain, and change. She was as beautiful as an orchid, and her strength came from the wind. I wish to be that wind. How about you? Do you wish the same thing?
I can't help but say her name randomly at times. I don't think about her, but I unconsciously call for her. Why? Why do I keep doing this? When will I stop? When will you stop? When will we realize that it is enough? Why does it take so long? Why?
These are some of the many things that are beyond us. We can analyze and explain the reasons. We can see that the water flows in this direction. We can feel that the wind went that way. We can assume or find factual details of why the wind and water move in such directions. But it isn't easy to find out why they went that way.
Do they have a choice? Do you have a choice? Is this the flow of life that we are destined to be? Can't we go outside the current? What would happen if you did? Will you survive? Do you keep on playing safe or take the risk? I wish I knew the answer to all these questions. If we knew? Do you know what to do? I feel weak and useless for being powerless in this situation. What could I have done to keep her? What can you do on your end?
Dealing with time needs patience. Combine it with consistency and rest for balance. Maybe in this way, we can step out of the current. We can move independently and explore beyond the current. We will never know unless we try, but is it indeed the right thing to do? What if things go wrong? It's difficult to fall towards nothingness. On the other hand, the recognition of emptiness means it is something. Does it make any sense to you? If not, read it again.
The word empty made my stomach growl. It's a normal feeling in the morning or later in the day. But I am not just hungry for food. I am also hungry to play football or have a cycling race.
I train to keep fit, although it is not enough. I need more stamina, skill development, and strategic games. I need more experience to develop myself. But it is difficult to do so when I have other priorities to comply with. I wish to be back on the magnificent field or the glorious open road. One day, maybe I will be back again. How about you? What makes you hungry? What inspires you to do the things you love?
If I had not interacted with her, there could have been no Mamu and Imi. Maybe it's true everything happens for a reason. We are often unaware of that reason.
Pain can help us grow. Sadness (crying) helps us relieve the pain. In this way, we can welcome happiness in our lives once again. Sometimes, we are disgusted with the things we do, and anger is tough to control. Having self-control is good. It helps us become calm and make wise decisions. Any emotions that are overly rushed can cause chaos.
Calmness must come from the center of our body to give us control. Discipline is in our arms and hands. It guides our mind and body on the goals we have to reach. Respect is within our hearts, and this includes respect for self and others. Time management is in our legs and feet. It helps us stand and move forward in life and savor the moments we create. Finally, being wise is in our minds. We must be careful with our decision-making. This can be applied even though you have disabilities. You can make your own drive of principles everyone can. But you don't need to if you choose not to.
Having inspiration helps us move forward in life. Inspiration can come in a variety of forms. It can be a person, an environment, an object, or anything you desire it to be. Now, we reach the end. Is it the end, though? What lies below (next) is a fall for nothing. But are you falling or floating in the void of emptiness? The rest is in your hands to feel in the blank space. I hope you find your inspiration along the way.