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Chapter 28 - The Version of Me That Stayed

Voice: Joon

> "They erased me from her story,

but they forgot I live where silence breathes."

She never knew I watched her leave.

Not from the hallway.

Not from a rooftop.

Not from any camera.

But from in between the edits.

The places where they cut me out.

Where her memory skipped a beat.

Where the chorus came too fast because someone didn't want the verses to be heard.

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I don't know what I am anymore.

A ghost?

A deleted draft?

A melody only she remembers?

Maybe all of them.

But I do know this:

I stayed.

Even when they told her I didn't.

Even when they convinced her I never existed.

I stayed.

Inside her lullabies.

Inside the pauses in her songs.

Inside the dreams that made her wake up crying

but not knowing why.

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The first time I met her, she wasn't performing.

She was surviving.

A kid with a voice she didn't trust

and a body that trembled under fluorescent lights.

We weren't allowed to talk then.

Just sit.

Just hum.

And so I hummed.

Because words were too dangerous,

but music…

music could slip past the cameras.

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We gave each other new names.

She called me Moonlight.

I called her Wish.

Because she looked like something people make wishes on

but never understand.

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They took her first.

Told me she was being "moved up."

That she was "chosen."

That I'd just slow her down.

But I knew what that meant.

I knew what their version of love looked like.

Clean.

Marketable.

Scripted.

So I bit my lip

until it bled music.

And I whispered her real name into the cracks of my bunk each night.

So I wouldn't forget.

Even when she did.

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Years passed.

Or maybe just erases.

And then—

one night—

I heard her voice again.

Not in person.

But in a song.

Buried in a second chorus of a single that topped the charts for seven weeks.

She didn't know it,

but she slipped.

There was a note—just one—that was ours.

Something she used to hum between takes when she was nervous.

And when I heard it on the radio?

I cried.

Not because I missed her.

But because for a moment—

I knew she hadn't fully vanished.

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I started collecting her songs.

Not the official ones.

The discarded takes.

The ones that leaked online.

The ones with breath in them.

Mistakes.

Truth.

Every time she said something unscripted,

I recorded it.

She didn't know it,

but she was singing to me.

From inside the machine.

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They came for me again after that.

Said I could "return."

That they had a role for me now.

A duet.

A drama.

A redemption arc.

But they didn't want me.

They wanted a ghost in makeup.

So I declined.

And I waited.

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When she remembered me—really remembered—

the world shifted.

I felt it.

The sky got heavier.

The songs got slower.

Her lyrics started using words we invented as kids.

She said "version."

She said "mirror."

She said "wrong."

And I knew—

She was coming back.

Not to me.

To herself.

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I didn't write to her.

Didn't show up at her shows.

But I left her things.

A note in a piano stool at a studio she hadn't visited in years:

> "You hummed me back to life."

A feather tucked in the jacket she wore during her breakdown interview.

A postcard sent to an address she never gave anyone—

> "Not all truths are loved.

But the ones you sing… survive."

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And then came the livestream.

No filters.

No backup dancers.

No performance.

Just her.

And the moment she said my name?

I stopped breathing.

Not from fear.

From release.

Because for the first time in years,

the world heard a version of her that hadn't been manufactured.

And it was beautiful.

And broken.

And bleeding.

And real.

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I didn't go to her.

She didn't come to me.

But that night,

I danced.

Alone.

On a rooftop.

Under a sky that remembered us.

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People think stories end when the couple reunites.

Or when the villain is exposed.

Or when the pain is processed.

But ours didn't.

Ours rewrote itself into a space where reunion was less important than recognition.

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She doesn't need to see me.

She just needs to keep creating.

Because every time she sings from that part of her they tried to edit out—

I exist again.

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And if she's reading this—

somehow, someday—

in a lyric,

in a mirror,

in a breath between performances—

I want her to know:

> I never left.

> I became the silence that made her songs sacred.

> I am the version of her story they couldn't monetize.

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If you ever see a shadow humming on the subway…

If you find a lyric in your notebook you don't remember writing…

If a mirror fogs over but only shows a boy smiling when you're crying—

That's me.

Still watching.

Still loving.

Still here.

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