"Who are you again?" I ask him.
"Are you joking right now? I seriously cant tell what you are thinking" He huffs out. catching his breath he wipes out nonexistent tears as he faces me again.
"I am your twin. Vernon Davenport. Did you loose your memories? Do you really not remember me?" He asks with alarming level of concern.
"Oh hi. No wonder we look the same. No. Yes."
"So.... you remember?"
"Hey, let me make this clear I am not her. I don't know how I don't know why. I am not who you think I am.
"So who are you then"
"I don't know how to explain you this, but Im pretty sure I shouldn't be here. My name is ....."
"what? what happened?"
"...."
Well. Sh*t. I don't remember anything I remember fragments of my memories but I cant seem to remember my own name. This Is creepy. The solid ground beneath me seemed to wobble for a moment. In any world fleeing as I feel is my second nature and so I ran. Yet again. But this time I was held back by two strong arms. It was my so called twins.
"Don't you dare hold me back." I yell as I force out of his grip. I need to clear my head. Something I know will calm me down. Booze. I run in the same direction I came from.
"Where is the bar?" I ask Vernon.
"Huh?"
"I'll give you exactly one more chance. Where do you keep your liquor." I level up to him.
"Third floor north wing." He whimpers.
I ran straight to wherever that place is. Only problem is I don't know wherever that god forsaken place is! I run back to the garden again and grab Vernon and drag him in with me.
"Lead the way" I yell.
"Yes mam" He sighs as he takes me there. Running with me.
We run for a while receiving more glances than the first time. The moment we entered the room the smell of wine and whiskey engulfed me. I took the nearest glass and poured myself a drink. And then I started drinking. Again and again and again.
"Who thought you to drink like that?"
"What made veronica to drown?"
"So you are not her?" He asks with pain.
"Yes." Thing is I can lie. I can lie very well. But I want him to loose his faith in me now than later on. I cant hide from him. Not when he cares this much. Besides it might take the uneasy feeling in my chest. Its been a long time since anybody expressed their emotions so openly to me. It makes me feel like my center of gravity is being pushed out.
"I understand." He straightens. His demeaner immediately changing. Which is of course understandable.
"So where Is she?" He asks with more agitation.
"I really don't know." I sigh." I dint mean to. This is not exactly ideal for me either." I say as I chug another cup.
"Why do you look like her? How can I not tell apart my other half. We came from the same womb. I swore to protect her and yet I couldn't." He says as he takes my cup and chugs it down.
"Wow there. slow down big boy." I say as I take a different cup.
"You drink worse than me."
I scoff at that remark. But remain silent.
"Do you know if she's alive?"
"If I knew I would tell you."
He sighs as we refill our glasses again. They say alcohol brings out the true you. I beg to differ it brings out the worst of you weather you like it or not. And that's what makes us so vulnerable to it.
He sighs for the hundredth time that day and fills his glass again. I take his drink for him and pull him up.
"Lets go kiddo."
The nearest maid rushed to us when she saw him drunk out of his mind. She pulls him away and takes him to his presumable room.
I stopped him pretty early but he still got hammered. He might be more of a lightweight than I thought. The corridor led to multiple rooms none of which is mine. I trace back my steps back to the room I woke up. I look at the reflection again.
Brown hair, olive skin, green eyes. But It doesn't matter I'm still me.
I'm still me.
What's my name though? I remember my life by parts. Good bad and the ugly. But not my name? How silly I giggle to myself. I let myself sleep. Resting is prolly for the better. I need to know what's going on.
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Waves clash minds drag but all I think of that moment is you.
"Who are you"
My time is limited and so is yours. Take care of Vernon for me, please. Do whatever to save yourself. Thank you my salvation.
"wait. I have some questions for you"
"Hello?"
"lady I cant hear you?"
"Anybody here?"
"Hello?"