Jaxon's POV
It had been weeks, but the guilt still crushed me. I couldn't sleep without seeing my mate's face, and the pain I put her through. I had carried her like trash and dropped her in the middle of the pack square while she was still asleep, letting everyone see her lying there naked like she was nothing. They didn't hesitate. They mocked her, insulted her, and beat her right there in front of me.
And I just stood there. Watching.
I didn't stop them. I didn't defend her. I made it worse when I told them lies.
I said she begged me for my cock, that she was too desperate to become my Luna and would do anything for it. I even painted her as someone shameless, and hungry for power, when the truth was the opposite. She loved me, I saw that in her eyes.
But I had lied when I had said I loved and adored her after which I took her virginity. It didn't end there when I did that, as I still went ahead and rejected her in the cruelest way the very next day, in front of everyone, and banished her.
I threw her away like she meant nothing because I didn't want my pack to think I was weak.
They'll say, An Alpha with an Omega mate? They would have questioned my strength. They would have doubted my leadership. And I couldn't allow that.
But now I was the one falling apart.
Every night, she haunted me in my dreams.
At first, I saw her like she was on that very day, crying and begging me to save her while I did nothing. Then immediately, her face suddenly turned dark and monstrous.
And I always woke up shaking, and drenched in sweat.
I couldn't take it anymore so I started calling the royal pack maids into my room. One after another, I used them to quiet the madness growing inside me. I thought that if I drowned in their bodies, maybe I could forget her. But I was wrong, it wasn't enough.
"Bring me a virgin Omega," I ordered my Beta one morning. "I need someone untouched."
He hesitated with a shocked look. "Alpha—"
"Do it," I snapped.
Within an hour, they brought her in. She was small, and trembling, with her wide eyes glued to the floor. I could smell her fear, and it excited something dark in me. I was losing my mind. I knew it.
"Strip," I ordered.
She shook her head quickly, as her lips quivered. "Please, Alpha… I—"
"Now!"
She fumbled with her dress, pulling it over her head slowly. She stood there, naked, her hands trying to cover herself. But I grabbed them and yanked them away.
"Let me see you in a straight full view." She did as instructed, standing straight without her hands covering her body, as tears welled up in her eyes.
"Get on the bed."
She obeyed immediately, lying on her back, shaking. I climbed over her, my hand sliding down her soft skin, and I could feel her chest rising and falling fast in fear.
"You're scared. Good. That's exactly what I need. Maybe this will make me forget. Make me forget that bastard. That pretty Omega that won't stop haunting me."
I didn't go slow. I shoved into her roughly, her scream cut through the room. But I didn't care.
I kept pushing, deeper, harder, ignoring her cries. Her hands pushed at my chest in an attempt to escape, but I pinned them down.
"Stay still, stubborn," I growled.
I drove into her over and over again, slamming my cock into hers. Her sobs filled the room in a sharp breathless voice, am sure the palace must have heard it , but I was too far gone in ruining her.
I wanted to use her. I wanted to damage her. I wanted to destroy something, anything, so I could feel alive.
I flipped her over, pulling her hips up as I slammed into her from behind. I gripped her hair, forcing her head back as I pounded into her mercilessly in hard , deeper thrust.
"Say you want it, Omega. Say you need me."
"I—I want it," she choked out, as hot tears streamed down her cheeks.
"Louder!"
"I want it, Alpha. Please!."
I slapped her ass, hard, leaving a red mark, then rubbed the sting with my palm. I leaned in closer, biting her shoulder, which immediately brought out blood.
"Good girl."
I said, as her body shook under me, and her walls clenched tightly around my glistening cock.
I was rough, and unremorseful, using her like she was nothing more than a toy to ease my torment.
"Open your mouth."
She hurriedly turned her head slightly, her lips parting. I shoved two fingers into her mouth, forcing her to taste her own tears and sweat.
"Suck on it."
She obeyed, as her tongue wrapped around my fingers as I kept driving into her throat.
I pulled out suddenly and forced her onto her knees. I grabbed her jaw, making her look up at me in a steady gaze.
"Use your mouth. Now!."
Her lips trembled as she wrapped them around me, moving slow at first. But I wasn't having enough of it, so I grabbed her hair roughly and pushed my whole cock down and deeper into her throat.
"Don't be a lazy fool, omega."
She gagged, as tears and spit dripped down from her chin, but I didn't give her any space. I used her throat like I owned it, feeling her choke around me as I groaned from the intense sensation.
"Good girl. Keep going."
Her mouth was hot, wet, and desperate to please. So I thrust into her throat, while I watched her struggle to breathe, but she didn't stop. She swallowed around me, her body shaking as I used her roughly.
When I pulled out, she gasped for air, wiping her mouth quickly with the back of her hand.
"Climb on me. Quickly."
I said, as I watched her body tremble when she straddled me. She lowered herself slowly, gasping as I stretched her painfully.
"Take it all, bitch."
She whimpered, her eyes squeezing shut, but she pushed herself down until I was fully inside her.
"Good. Now ride me."
She moved as instructed, grinding her hips in small boring circles. Her pace was shaky at first, but I gripped her waist firmly and made her bounce harder, forcing her to take me deeper and harder.
"Don't stop until your legs turn jelly."
She nodded her response, as I watched her breasts bounce on each thrust, while her nails dug into my shoulders, and cried out with each hard thrust. I could feel her breaking, as her walls clenched tightly around me, while she struggled to keep going.
"Faster." I roared.
She obeyed, riding me harder, her soft cries turning into screams. She came suddenly, as her whole body collapsed against mine, trembling from the overwhelming pleasure.
But I wasn't done yet with her.
I flipped her onto her back and slammed into her again, chasing for my own release. I wanted to forget. I wanted to destroy her so I could erase my mate from my mind.
"Take it. Take all of me."
She could barely speak, as her body was too used to fight me off. I kept going, harder, deeper, and faster until I finally spilled inside her, groaning as the release took me.
I pulled out and watched as my seed dripped from her swollen entrance.
"You did well," I muttered, standing up and leaving her damaged and broken on the bed.
I walked into the bathroom, turning on the shower, as I let the hot water hit me, hoping it would wash away the guilt, the shame, and the madness clawing at me from the inside.
But it didn't.
I pressed my hands against the cold tiles, while shutting my eyes tightly as I tried to steady my breathing.
But then, something hit me hard in the chest. As a sudden heat rushed through me and I quickly opened my eyes and looked around, but nothing seemed out of place.
Still, I could feel something was wrong. And it had to do with my mate.
I could sense myself from afar.
Could it be… that she's carrying my pup?