But I still had to maintain my emotions
"even when knowing that I will be killed if I go there?"
"he will not kill you" he said it confidently and without hesitation
I smiled like I was hearing nonsense "what makes you so sure that he will not kill me?" I asked curiously
"I just know" he simply said like it was nothing but I really had enough with his nonsense.
"oh come on, he killed all the most beautiful women that you sent them to him and he even killed all the princesses from powerful kingdoms that visited him in his kingdom" yes he killed them all but their kings never dared to do anything to the king of Desher for killing their daughters because they know that they will lose every single thing and with their lives, so that's why they haven't done anything and just sat back. "and then what will make me so special not to be killed or abused by him?" I continued angrily.
"it's different this time, don't worry" he was starting to get angry and annoyed but am suppose to be the one to be angry and annoyed?
"how did you know?"
"because he asked me to send you there and he insured that he will not kill you or harm you" he finally admitted the truth behind this chaos. But it didn't make me feel better, it made me feel more anxious, sacred, angry and confused.
"why?" I asked curiously
"because of the cooperation, of course"
"of course I know that but I meant, why Me?"
"I don't know but he said that he will never agree until it's you who will present it for him" my father explained without noticing that something was off.
"and don't you find it strange?" I asked maybe he will realize it now. My father gave me a look that says 'what the hell are you talking about'.
"No" he finally said innocently
"like seriously, he's really going to do something bad to me, don't you think?" I said with a shaky voice and a tear fell from my eyes. Now I'm so scared, i can't even breathe because anxiety. "father, please don't send me there, I'm begging you" I pleaded but he disappointed me "he will not do anything to you and he insured it" he said coldly with anger.
"And you just believed him and going to send me there and let me die?!" I shouted at him since I'm really angry now.
My father just stood there without any expression on his face and his probably speechless. And since he disappointed me and heartless, so I will do the same thing.
"I will not go, no matter what" I refused coldly and kept looking right into his eyes coldly. And now my father is fuming inside with anger.
"you better do as I say" he warned angrily
"and why should I? Since you never listened to what I say in this kind of chaos, why will I care since you never cared if I die or not because your business. I have been always doing what you told me to do even if its dangerous I will do it just because I think that you will be proud of me and love me, and care for me a bit if I do well but you never did, you just kept your distance and ignore my feelings" I said with a shaky voice but still he never had an expression and beings emotionless and heartless. "I will never go no matter what, should happen, I will never go. And do not ever think of sending suzi instead of me" I continued and warned. I don't know from where I got all this courage from to face my father like that without any fear and hesitation at all or because maybe it's now deals with my life so I have to fight for it.
My father just stared at me angrily for a while and he also seemed defeated, then just left the room without a word.
I sat down on my chair with a sigh of relief while suzi was still in shock and confused but after a while she sat beside me and said "Lana, this seems so serious" I feel her fear in her voice.
"very serious but don't worry, we just have to not go and I will never go no matter what"
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My father entered his study room angrily and frustrated because he knows there is nothing he can do because all I said was true and can't just believe him so he just gave up. So he immediately starts writing the letter to the king of Desher that I will not be going to him.
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I and suzi when to our separate rooms and slept well because father imformed us not worry again because he took care of it and ended it, but by that it even made me more anxious and worried because how could he just give up so easily while he was the one who asked my father to send me to him, it just so impossible but after a while I just let it pass and slept peacefully because I remembered that tomorrow is a special day for me. Because the season two of my favorite romantic novel will be released tomorrow. So I woke up early and got out of bed excitedly, I hurried to the bathroom and bathed, got dressed beautifully since is a special day to me. The maids got me breakfast but I didn't eat much since I'm not a fan of food at all, food is not my priority. I only enjoy fruits, different delicious desserts, juice and water and I will be really satisfied and happy.
I really can't wait to start reading those beautiful romantic words.