Aveline
I was at my villa, talking to Alia. We were in my room. I told her everything—every single damn thing.
She was almost about to slap me. Umm... she didn't, btw.
"Are you an idiot or dumb, Aveline? She fucking kissed you—not just a kiss, a passionate, desire-filled kiss! You even bit her arm. Wait—you were chewing her arm! Are you a rabbit or what?! Really? Idiot, idiot!
What about that Kai? He's been clingy with you since that event ended. Now it's been two weeks and he's still clingy towards you!"
"He's a good guy, right Alia? We're just friends."
"Usually, a girl and a boy can never be just friends."
"Why...?"
"'Cause boys often confess. If not, the girls do. What do you think he's doing? Wandering around you, giving you milk, sweets, being extra protective, watching your dance competitions, being extra clingy—is that friend behavior, Aveline?"
"He's not just being friends with you. Why don't you understand that? And you kissed Ruby—that mafia who can destroy the damn world with one signal. What are you doing? Kissing her and letting him get closer and closer to you?"
Was I in my right mind or not? I was looking at her, confused. I kissed Ruby... and I'm letting Kai get closer to me?
What the hell do I even want...?
"If I do anything, I might hurt one of them. Alia... what should I do? I don't love Ruby. Neither do I love Kai. What am I doing, Alia...?"
"How am I supposed to know what you were doing?!" she snapped.
"She even made your portrait and got all possessive, while Kai's been clingy. They—they both are falling for you, Aveline."
"No, no, no, no, no, Alia... it can't be me. I can never be in love. Not with Ruby. Not with Kai."
"And why not? If you can kiss her, then why the hell can't you love her? Aveline—tell me, why can't you love her? And why did you kiss her, then?!"
"I-I-I dunno, Alia. I don't know why I did that. But I don't want to fall in love.
Loving Ruby feels like loving death—she's a mafia.
And loving Kai feels like getting a boyfriend in the form of a cage."
"I don't know what I should do now, Alia. Tell me—tell me something, anything."
"Just be normal. Maintain your distance. That's all you can do. And please—don't you dare kiss Ruby again if you didn't love her in the first place."
I didn't know anymore what I should do.
I know that Kai doesn't want to be just friends with me.
And Ruby—she's damn possessive.
I just sighed and said, "Alia, whatever comes... just support me, no matter what."
She nodded, and I wasn't thinking about it anymore.
Let's see what's going to happen next.
I just can't keep telling myself I don't love her. Or him.
I'll choose—if life ever gives me an option.
The universe is cruel to me. I know that.
So... let's just see.
I'm just too damn tired to think about anything.
Honestly—
Let's just see what's going to happen next.
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