Nothing.... that what i felt, nothing....
I see worlds like a black and white old movie, dull and slow, I life because I don't have anything else to do, wake up, go to school, go home, eat and sleep, then repeat it over.... did I got bored? I'm not sure... but I don't have anything else i want to do any way, wasting my life time just like this.
Wasting time... indeed wasting time, what else i can do? frustrated? me? i don't think so i don't have previlage to have that emotions, I don't have any expectations to feel disappointed, I life, I breathe, just because it's happen.
I was called by name Levi, woman who give me a birth who I call 'Mom' give me the name, so i can be a calm baby who not disturbing her life, she a successful business woman, who inherited huge company that my grandparents have, and the man I call 'dad' is a respectful police officer, he was a very capable investigator, and I very seldom to see him around, he was a busy guys indeed, so my life is just a life with out an passionate love, wealth but cold, all my early life i been take cared by nanny, and coincidentally she had other projects to do, like collecting my mother jewelry, so she was putting me who was just a baby to long nap.... but looks like the 'medicine' she give just a little too much one day, until baby me not waking up, and that becomes a great commotion at my family house, i got in coma for 3 days they said, I not remember of course, and my grandparents got very angry to my parents, and change their wills to heritage all their fortune to me and not my mom, and tell my mom if she not willing to take care of me, she just best drop dead. Yeah that my grandparents was, so since that she got home more often to check on me, like twice a week? so did my father he coming home for couples day a month, great progress right? while me? I don't really care with their presence, the doctor said that i can be have a brain damage after that accident, who make me a emotionless human being, they call it Asperger syndrome.
To make short the calm baby they want,my parents get it! a baby who never cried or whimper, a boy who just go to school and coming home without any fuss, it's keep going till today and maybe for the rest of my life or their life.... did i hate them? my parents? well didn't have that spectrum of feeling inside my brains, what can I said.
Live a peaceful life... that not to bad? right just need waiting the day, me silent heart to shutdown.
Thump!
Thump... thump...
What? what that? i got my heart beat!
Today for first time at my boring life...
I see color...
The red balloon at my grayscale world.
The first ripple on the dark water.
I nor realize that my leg already run so fast, but I need to get faster!
"Shit!!!! El!!! wait for me! shit!" a boy frantic call for his friends, who dash like a thunderstorm and she jump right to the river!
There a white puppy almost drowning.
Fast! need to get there fast!
I jump from above the bridge to rescue that puppy and girl.
"Hoah!! that so freaking cool friend! but don't do it ever again pal, this river is swallow man, you can get your bone fractures man!" she just laughing in front my face.
"Shit! El! get up hurry! what the fuck!" the boy from earlier come and drag that girl by her collar like pulling a puppy?
"Hei moron! it's not marvel world who need heroes to jump to river to help damsel in distress! what a moron!"
that boy keep grumble with that's distained look on his face.
"See you again next time jack frost, kekekeek"
that girl just giggles looking my wet stage.
hmmm.... what this i feel some ticklish feeling on my stomach, I can't really understand what i feel right now, while watch the boy drag that girl to river side and start to dry out her hair and grumbled in the way, some how i don't really like it, may be I hate him? but I got different feeling with that girl who just hold tight the puppy and smiling bright, she don't even hearing all the complain that boy give.
What just happened? this trill feeling i had right now... I want to know more.., I just staring they left with their bicycle, she wafe her hand at me while sitting behind that annoying boy! ... annoying? ah... ah... annoying? he is?
hmmm... just need to go home now.
At home, my mom staring at me up and down with the awe... but she not asking me anything, coz she now my answer won't give anything to her.
"You stink!" that her response... that's my biological mom indeed, no wonder I was like this.